It Isn't Just About Pink Ribbons.

I had made a trip home to see my Grandmother in late June.
The baby was turning one and she had never seen him. But my visit coincided with her tests. And before I left we knew it was cancer.
I will never forget her talking about his curly baby hair. (she loved curly hair) And him stretched out on a blanket on her living room floor sound asleep as I had slept so many times in my life. My Grandmother was my anchor in a stormy life. Her home, although it changed every year as she moved from apartment to condo, was my refuge, my sanctuary. I was only home for a week and I had to leave her.

I called her almost every day..
Phone calls really didn't convey to me that this, the second round of cancer (it was a different kind) was fast and deadly. Maybe I didn't want to know or hear. I called her and called her. Listening for a change, a sign that she was getting better.
Finally one day in the middle of September I was talking with her. She could barely speak. I just made out her saying, "you come". I was on the next flight out. Absolutely didn't have the money, left a homeschooled first grader and one year old with my bewildered husband who just said, go we will figure it our later.
I got in that evening. They met me at the airport. We drove straight to the hospital. The hospital where I was born. She didn't recognize me at first. Someone put her glasses on, she looked at me. I held her hand. The aunts were tired and wanted to go.
I wanted to stay.
I didn't fight them.
She would be here tomorrow, she had never not been there for me. I never thought it would be our last visit. I never thought I would never talk to her again. She was in so much pain. But she had waited for me to get there.
One last goodbye.
The aunts were there to drive us back to her house. We joked like old times and I slept.

The call came before we made it back to the hospital the next morning. She was gone.

We arrived, and other family were there. The nurse said, I have to remove her rings. I need someone from the family. No one could go. I will, I said. I stood there tears soaking my soul as she washed Gram's hands tenderly. I said, those hands bathed so many babies. She smiled and handed me the rings. I slipped them on my fingers and clenched my fist.

The hurt was so bad. She was too young to leave us. She had done everything in her life so quickly, married and a family before the end of the war, before her twentieth year. A grandmother in her forties. But it was too soon. I was not ready to let her go. It was out of my hands no though, she was gone.

That is what cancer does to a family. It is more than pink ribbons and provocative phrases. It isn't cute, funny, or flippant.
This is why I hate cancer.

How Do You Know the Truth?

Dear Beloved,

I love you and am so happy that you are exploring your faith with an open and sincere heart but I need to let you know something as a fellow believer.

  I have a caution for you. Don’t fall into the trap that a heck of a lot of people do. That is, to say that they know God and know who or what He is based on their assumptions, opinions, experiences, studies of various alternative writers, and on and on. The only way to truly know and solidify in your mind who God is, is to find out who He says He is. God is saying: "If you want to get to know me, ask me, don’t ask everyone else who thinks they know me. Read what I wrote. Go straight to the source."

You wrote:

             "I believe that we have within us the ability to heal ourselves from the majority of problems but I know that the mind and body can turn against you."

 That sounds real good, but if you are a believer, forgiven and redeemed, that’s a whole lot of unnecessary work. Why try to use your limited powers to work out your problems and healing?? The Bible plainly shows us it’s already been done for us

Isaiah 53:4-6

 Surely he took up our infirmities

       and carried our sorrows,

       yet we considered him stricken by God,

       smitten by him, and afflicted.

  But he was pierced for our transgressions,

       he was crushed for our iniquities;

       the punishment that brought us peace was upon him,

       and by his wounds we are healed.

  We all, like sheep, have gone astray,

       each of us has turned to his own way;

       and the LORD has laid on him

       the iniquity of us all.

Our healing was made available when Jesus became the innocent sacrifice at Calvary. There is a lifetime of learning we can put into finding how that applies to each person, but the truth is it is there. If we could heal ourselves then why did Jesus have to die on the cross? If it is truly a matter of as you wrote: "Mind over Matter.  It all is controlled by the Mind"…  then one of the gentlest, wisest, and most loving teachers on the face of the earth was murdered for nothing. Our devotion, then, is only to a good man who spoke good words. The fact is He was not just a man. He was fully God as well as fully human. Completely innocent and yet completely aware it was our sins that created the Divine breach between us. There is a mystery to some of the things of God but most of it is expressed with childlike simplicity. It is easy enough for the youngest child to comprehend and wondrous enough for the aged saint to yet marvel over.

Later you said,

            “I have recently come to the conclusion that God is not an actual being like you or   me."

God is an actual being like you. He created man in His image. He has a form that can be seen and a voice that can be heard. In Exodus 33: 14-22 Moses has this exchange with God:

  The LORD replied, "My Presence will go with you, and I will give you rest."

 Then Moses said to him, "If your Presence does not go with us, do not send us up from here.... 

  Then Moses said, "Now show me your glory."

 And the LORD said, "I will cause all my goodness to pass in front of you, and I will proclaim my name, the LORD, in your presence. I will have mercy on whom I will have mercy, and I will have compassion on whom I will have compassion.  But," he said, "you cannot see my face, for no one may see me and live."

 Then the LORD said, "There is a place near me where you may stand on a rock.  When my glory passes by, I will put you in a cleft in the rock and cover you with my hand until I have passed by.  Then I will remove my hand and you will see my back; but my face must not be seen."

God's face and voice are real. His presence and glory (shekinah) are a beautiful mystery to be sought after privately, individually, it is an intimate experience to know God at this level, but you can know him. Anyone can.

You also said,

" God is an entity, taking the form of a physical being if necessary."

God is triune, in that He is three in one. God the Father, God the Son, God the Holy Spirit. This is why we see Him say in Genesis 1:26

" Then God said, "Let US make man in OUR image, in OUR likeness"

The plurality of God allows Him to interact with us and others throughout time in different, personal ways. Pretty cool. He is more than an entity that takes a physical form at will. He purposefully chose to be fully human and fully God for a specific time and place. It is not a whim or way He sometimes “appears” God is deliberate in how He interacts with us, and not spooky or metaphysical at all.

 Most disturbing to me is when you wrote:

          "There is a strange theory in the Astronomical world about a "glue" that holds the universe together called "dark matter"." 

Theories from other disciplines are like gossip about celebrities, pretty much somebody's opinion, maybe with a little truth, but not to be taken seriously.

You continued:

           "What if this "glue" is the will of God and we just haven't been able to see it yet.  We are still in the dark ages.  God will ensure that soon we will all see the light."

God's will is so clearly and simply written all over His Word. All we need to do is read it. There is no mystery to it, no reason to not see it, and no reason to walk in darkness.

John 1: 3-5 describes Jesus like this:

Through him all things were made; without him nothing was made that has been made. In him was life, and that life was the light of men. The light shines in the darkness, but the darkness has not understood[a] it. The light is here and the things of darkness have no more power over any who live in His salvation, mercy and grace.

Ephesians 5: 8-11 comforts us with this promise:

 For you were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Live as children of light (for the fruit of the light consists in all goodness, righteousness and truth) and find out what pleases the Lord. Have nothing to do with the fruitless deeds of darkness, but rather expose them.

I guess the whole thing is, God knows when we first begin to develop a relationship with Him we stumble and learn daily. We need a whole lot of faith as we plunge into His Word. And that is the only safe harbor for a new vulnerable faith. The enemy knows that God’s Word is a powerful weapon to break down the strongholds he has used to keep us from God. Don’t ever blindly trust what anyone says about the Bible, God or Jesus. Look to the Bible for the final definitive answer to any question.

Be blessed

More Than Just Living.Hope.

Define Hope.

Not easy.

The very definition of an intangible is that there is nothing there to see. How do you describe something that is not there?

How do you grasp a vapor, a promise, a dream?

How do you curve a letter around a wisp of a thought? A sparkle of a grin?

Hope truly is defined by what it isn’t.

It isn’t a stone or stair but you can climb up on it to reach unsearchable places.

It isn’t wool and leather to guard you from cold but you can weave it about to guard your heart.

It isn’t breathless joy waiting around the corner but it will dance with your expectations in delight.

Hope is a choice we make when our dreams come outside of our sleep filled eyes and wake us with insistence.

“Believe!” it says.

“Have Faith”

 

The possibilities of hope can bubble inside of us like uncorked champagne.

And hope can burst and fizzle to nothing if not preserved and created anew.

Often those who know defeat the least will hope the best.

Children infinitely hope that distant bells mean ice cream trucks and bright colored packages hold answered requests.

But not all children can keep hope alive. Those whose eyes have aged as they witness too much pain and defeat sometimes just can not.

There is no greater task than to resuscitate that hope and give vigor to a little one as she hopes for more.

As she hopes for enough strength to get up a from a sick bed.

As he hopes for a school uniform and a desk to sit at.

As she dreams of giving back to a grandmother who has given more than she has to give.

As he longs for a night of sleep without terror of the unknown and the sorrow of the morning.

As they dare to look for a future where children will be healthy and dream of success beyond the dirt roads and into the stars.

Won't you join me in giving hope to God's children around the world? I support http://friendsoftouch.org/ and http://gointernational.org/

VIP...In Training??

Honestly, my first thought on seeing this picture is that our messed up North American thinking is making quite an ironic statement all the way in Kampala, Uganda...

 http://friendsoftouch.org/v-i-p-in-training/

V.I.P. In Training is printed on her tattered shirt.

sheesh.

I have battled for over 25 years with people in Christian leadership over the needs of children only to be subtly or not so subtly told that they are only children and do not count as worthy of time, attention or money.

You see the ugly truth is that most people view children as valuable only as far as their potential...

            "They are going to be valuable someday… They will be of value when they are voting, earning money, and spending money; able to really think and feel..."

                                          “Children are our future”                                               

they say with beatific smiles and placating pats on my shoulder.
                                                                            "We will take care of them."

Excuse me while I scream long and loud in frustration with that twisted thinking.

Listen to me. If children are our future then what you are truly saying is that we are not responsible for their now. We only need to meet the needs that will sustain them in the future, when they are like us, powerful adults whom we must respect. Who can contribute to our lives.

What this is saying is If children are our future how can we selfishly manipulate them to meet our own needs? It is our future after all, our unknown, and they must be made our servants to insure that we will be taken care of.

Please remember that I am talking about and to Christians. So I ask you, when and where does God’s Word say that we are to put our own convenient needs first above anyone else’s?  Why is it that your church has a worship band with expensive instruments, singers and musicians for the adults but your kids are learning how to worship to a beat up cd? Why is it that you can sell cd's of your sermons but you make the children raise their own money for a trip to church camp? Do you provide transportation for people who have no car or driver's license? How are they supposed to get to church? 

        When did God say that we are only supposed to take care of people who can return the favor? 

We just as easily refuse to give time money or a second thought for the needs of children globally for the exact same reason; they have no impact on our immediate life. We say we are not involved in meeting the needs of children  in missions because we need to meet the needs of our community first but we aren’t doing that either. 

The church today has no problem funding Men’s ministries. Men have giant conferences, where we send our guys to buy t shirts and ball caps and learn how to be a man and run the family and the church. Wonderful, training is important and God knows we need strong leaders. But what if we took the $100 registration fee for each man and asked him to pick a fatherless kid to mentor for a month? Take him out to eat, buy him a basket ball and play with him.

Women dump piles of cash into Bible study guides, cute jesus jewelry, and coffee cups. Dear God! What if we took the extra funds and mentored a teenage mother through a crisis pregnancy?   

We take trips to Christian theme parks and plays and buy a ton of books and journals when as little as 40 bucks a month can save a child’s life in a third world country.

It is so much easier to have the children’s minister haul the kids off to an Easter Egg hunt and let you hang with your friends during church than it is to invest your life into a child’s life isn't it?

Are children valuable or are they just waiting to be valuable?

Are they the most Very Important Person? Or are they in training to be valuable when they grow up?

Before you go there and decide Yes, I want to invest in children let me warn you of a few things

• Children rarely say thank you. They may never stand up in church and sing your praises.
• Children cannot buy you a cup of Starbucks or take you out to eat.
• They will walk into your life and walk right back out and you may never know if you made a difference or not.
• Sometimes they will fight everything you try to do for them. They haven’t yet learned to trust.
• You will work long hours, very often alone.
• Once you have seen them with God’s eyes they will multiply like space invaders. You will see needy little ones everywhere you go all over the world, looking at you with Jesus’ eyes.
• Serving children will break your heart. And it will be a pain like you have never known.
• Children are the ripest field for harvest. They are so fresh from God’s home that they leap at the chance to go back into His arms. If you take Jesus to them they will accept Him faster and stronger than any other people group.
• Children will love you with the purest most valuable love God ever made between humans.
• When they are not flesh of your flesh, natural born children and you love and serve them, a connection to God is formed in your heart that the Enemy cannot understand or penetrate. 
• When you love a child through adoption, you love most truly as God loves us.

 This sweet girl with her disarming smile and her reticent stance is not by any means a V.I.P. in training. She is the most valuable gift the Father has lavished on us. The gift of life wrapped around an eternal soul created in His image.

Guard your precious valuables with all that is in you and you will see the face of God.


Thank you Friends of TOUCH for the photo.
Friends of Touch is a Christian ministry dedicated to giving children an opportunity and a voice. Our mission is to show Orphaned and Vulnerable Children the love of Christ in a tangible way – to nurse, equip and release them to be leaders and professionals, and to equip them to reach their God-given potential.
 http://friendsoftouch.org/v-i-p-in-training/

Letter to a Lost Lamb

Dear One,

First of all let me say I am very sad and sorry that you have been hurt. Please forgive me if I have ever hurt you. You are a child of God and therefore are deserving of respect and love. 

Period.

As a Christian I want to say that I have been ashamed of the words and actions of my brothers and sisters as well. They are a sometimes difficult bunch, but so are the people I have met who don’t profess Christ. So I just try to treat them all the way Jesus did, love and forgive, and move on.

I hear your cry for love. You see it in certain Scriptures.  Paul did write those beautiful words in Corinthians and Jesus was motivated by love but his mission in life was not just to be an example or to spread love. His purpose was to be the Messiah.

In Matthew, Chapter 16: 13-17 Jesus wanted to make sure his disciples knew who he was:

 “When they came to the area of Caesarea Philippi, he asked his followers, "Who do people say the Son of Man is?" … Simon Peter answered, "You are the Christ, the Son of the living God." Jesus answered, "You are blessed, Simon son of Jonah, because no person taught you that.  My Father in heaven showed you who I am."
Again “Then they all said, ‘Are You then the Son of God?’ So He said to them, ‘You rightly say that I am’” (Luke 22:70).
“I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father but by me” (John 14:6).

He knew and taught who he was, not just another teacher or good man, but the Messiah, the Annointed One who came to offer reconciliation between God and all people. Why did we need that reconciliation?

"For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God" (Romans 3:23).

The word “sin” is used in a lot of ways, but the essential meaning and result of sin is separation from God,  it involves pride -- man thinking more highly of his own ways than God’s. Without Jesus Christ, His sacrifice and resurrection, connecting to God is not possible because of sin. We all have sinned, the results of which are death and an eternity separated from God. Since God is Holy, there can be no imperfection in His presence.

But death was not God’s plan for us. Abundant and eternal life is what Jesus Christ came to bring.
Why? Romans 5:8 says, "But God showed His great love for us by sending Christ to die for us while we were still sinners."

You wrote that you believe in Jesus. But what does that mean? 
Do you believe parts like Mr. Jefferson and the bible he made by cutting out pieces of the Scripture and pasting them together?
Because to Jesus the only belief that mattered was belief in his ability to be the Savior.

 In John 11: 25-27 “Jesus said to her, "I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in me will live, even though he dies; and whoever lives and believes in me will never die. Do you believe this?" "Yes, Lord," she told him, "I believe that you are the Christ, the Son of God, who was to come into the world."

I guess the upshot is the only thing that mattered to Jesus is that his sacrifice not be in vain. I am sure he is flattered that so many people like him and his teachings, but I think the purpose of his life was the atonement he offered for us, or the satisfaction he gained through his death.

I found this interesting from Easton’s 1897 Bible Dictionary:
Christ's work consisted of suffering and obedience,
 and these were vicarious, i.e., were not merely for our benefit, but were in our stead,
 as the suffering and obedience of our vicar, or substitute.
 Our guilt is expiated by the punishment which our vicar bore,
and thus God is rendered propitious, i.e.,
 it is now consistent with his justice to manifest his love
 to transgressors.

He who was guilt free stood before the judge and took our sentence: Death.
That means the most important thing in your life and mine is what we do with Jesus. No matter how many places we look and see hurt in the church that does not negate the fact that an innocent man loved you enough to cross death and hell to say I love you and I want to spend eternity with you.

Not many people can get past what his “followers” have done to what Jesus actually says. It is mostly and importantly about a relationship with Jesus. The others are secondary, albeit quite distracting and hurtful.
And please, please know I am not belittling your hurt. But just like in a romantic relationship you cannot let one jerk keep you from ever loving anyone else again.

The Shepherd of your soul is calling. He wants to patch your wounds and restore you to a place of peace and comfort.

I hope this is encouraging to you dear one, I do still pray for you.

You are very precious to your Heavenly Father and He thinks of you often, catching your tears in a bottle. (Ps. 56:8)

With all my Love

What Are You Worth?

Greek words are so beautiful. Such allure and boldness in their twists and curves. I am falling in love with a language I cannot read.

The attraction simply is this: these are the words that bring me even closer to what my Lord said so very long ago. A step closer to the breath of God’s voice. His life whispering in my ear. I am so grateful He gave me this hunger and love for words, especially His.

I was making my way through Ephesians chapter one and I saw that the Greek/English literal translation slightly varied from the RSV right here:

In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of our trespasses, according to the riches of his grace which he lavished upon us. v.7-8

What RSV and many other Bibles have translated as riches, my Greek said wealth.

Hmmm.

Riches and wealth are the same aren’t they? For whatever reason riches sounds more holy but the word: Ploutos actually means wealth, an abundance of stuff. Having a bunch of money and not having to worry about a thing.

Wealth.

What a carnal word for us.

We do not often link wealth and riches (possessions, houses, cars, clothes, money, money money )with the gifts God has for us.

(Well, ok I know some people do. What a shame.)

But the more I thought about it the more I was awed by God and how He loves.

The verse says we have redemption according to His riches. What exactly is redemption?
It means

being released from captivity

by someone paying the ransom

according to His riches.

So you understand: the kidnapped child of a corporate exec will be worth more ransom than a teacher’s kid simply because of the riches of the Father.

What do you suppose God’s riches are? Can He pay for whatever He wants? Could he buy you a nice steak dinner without blinking? What about a vacation to the Islands in the middle of winter? Could He pay off your mortgage and your car? Can He stroke a check and write off the hospital bills for your momma’s cancer treatment? Could He build a new school for the orphans? Can He buy medicine for a young HIV positive boy? Can He build a shelter for abused girls?

Yes, and yes, again and again. He can and does perform these monetary miracles everyday.

But the beautiful thing is it is because His riches are not stocks and investments or real estate or oil fields. His riches are His grace.

His Grace

Which He lavishes on us.

You are far more important than anything that can be purchased. A soul is of infinitely greater value than even a hospital for orphans. Your Father could purchase the land and build the building and staff it with doctors and medicine but of far greater worth to him is paying the ransom for your soul. Because if all the schools and orphanages and hospitals are built but a single soul is lost it is all meaningless.

Think about it, there is a soul, a sweet creation of God who at this very moment is sitting in a cell of sin, hands shackled, legs bound, eyes searching for an end to the torment, searching for a Redeemer.

Someone to pay the ransom and release them from their pain.

And even though the price is beyond what you or I could ever even imagine, God from His magnificent, never depleted, storehouse of grace is counting out the price and laying out the riches of His grace one by one like a stack of gold coins like piles of crisp $1000 dollar bills. His abundant riches. His unmerited Grace.

His grace that overshadowed a young woman and breathed life into her, and the child who grew to be Messiah. The Savior who walked and talked and lived to be like you. To know you and your pain. To know your hope and joy. To know your despair and heartache. Jesus, the most valuable thing God purchased from the riches of His grace, Jesus, who in turn paid your ransom with His very body on a cross.

Why could Jesus submit to the cross and feel the precious gift of life drip from Him?

Because He counted the cost and He knew His Father could pay.

He can pay for the most abundant blessed joyful peaceful life anyone can ever have. He has the wealth, the riches, for it all.

And you are worth it.

Walking. Just Walking.

 It is a mystery indeed.

I know that God is holy and I know that I am not but how…how do I live in this chasm between Him and me?

Sometimes I think we make Jesus’ story into a movie or a novel with interesting characters and great plot twists. And it plays well as such. He is compelling and the story is fascinating, surprising, heartwarming, heart wrenching. We can leave the theater saying

THAT was a good story

digest our popcorn and go back to futility.

But how do we live this Christian life? How do we move on past the acceptance of His sacrifice and live each day as new, changed, fruit of His labor?

God has explained through the astounding brain and surrendered heart of Paul that it is a give and take, an exchange, a process by which we ease from this world of strife to His Kingdom of light.

Us, who walk not according to the flesh but according to the Spirit. Romans 8:4 

Walking. Just walking.

He challenges us to walk in pace with the Spirit. To learn step by step how to walk each day in this new forgiveness and grace. He knows that a person who is not conditioned or in shape cannot run and the marathon of life is beyond comprehension at the onset. But walking, little by little, building strength, we can do it. You can do it.

You have no good choice really. God says: To set the mind on the flesh is death, but to set the mind on the Spirit is life and peace. Romans 8:6

Why would we turn away this offer of life and peace? If you are truly in love with your Father God then you must already know that living in step with your flesh, your crazy impulsive feelings and reactionary words never ever brings peace or sustains life. It always results in death: endings, separation, conflict, and sorrow. His Word says the mind of the flesh is enmity against God.

Enmity:

a feeling of hostility or ill will, as between enemies; antagonism… deep-rooted hatred.

Why would we ever allow this to happen? How can we let this God who is love from the beginning of time become our enemy? How can we not bow in obeisance and joyfully follow where the Holy Spirit leads?

Tilt your head to catch his Voice whispering to you. Know the things that have become weapons of war against God your Abba Father.  Tear down the fleshy fattened grotesque ideas and words and habits that have become the foxhole you have suffered in. Surrender to His gentle guidance. He will teach you how to walk into this Kingdom with your head held high.

It makes me laugh with pleasure when I think of enormity of the benefits of walking in His leading, in His Spirit .They are simply:

Life and Peace.

And Family…

you have received a spirit of adoption. When we cry, “Abba! Father!”  it is that very Spirit bearing witness with our spirit that we are children of God,  and if children, then heirs, heirs of God and joint heirs with Christ—if, in fact, we suffer with him so that we may also be glorified with him. Romans 8:15-17

And because of this adoption: an inheritance.

A promise of a forever love.

Isn’t that what your heart longs for:

 the sweet gift of the growth of life,

the heart soothing voice of peace

and the comfort of family belonging?

I know mine does. Start walking then.

Reference:

The New Greek-English Interlinear New Testament

copyright1990

Tyndale House Publishers, Inc.

New Revised Standard Version (NRSV)

New Revised Standard Version Bible, copyright © 1989 the Division of Christian Education of the National Council of the Churches of Christ in the United States of America.